Nothing happens without discipline

A few weeks ago, I was reading an email and saw this phrase that struck a chord with me, “Nothing happens without discipline.” I wrote that down on a post-it note and put it near my monitor at work. Every day I stare at that piece of paper silently hoping to find my motivation, to find my discipline. I used to be a disciplined person about a lot of different things. I feel as I have aged, that my lack of discipline has disappeared. As I sit here 12 hours before my 38th birthday, I know I need to find the discipline in one area and I need it ASAP.

My discipline to read the Bible every day is way better than it was. I am at least reading every day or every other day. I feel my faith growing stronger during a dark time. I have been reading the Bible out loud and I am gaining a better understanding of the Word. Digging into God’s Word is better enhancing my prayer life. I started reading a daily devotional as well.

My discipline is seriously lacking in the weight loss department. Yesterday, I met with neurosurgeon. And although he understood about me starting a new job and not being able to do anything right now, I was told that surgery is not something I’m going to be able to avoid much longer. He has referred me to therapy for six weeks. But surgery will have to come no matter what. I know in order to alleviate this extreme pain I’m in, I need to lose weight and I need to be serious about it. I have a pretty high thresh hold for pain and to say I have been hurting for the past month and a half is an understatement. It has been immense pain. Pain so bad that brings me to my knees and makes me sob uncontrollably. I don’t want to live life in pain. This past month has been eye-opening.

My pastor has asked me about a book called the Daniel Plan. I have this book, but honestly never took the time to read it. He asked me if I would be interested in doing a group regarding this plan. I am going to research the book some more, but right now I need all the help I can get. As stubborn as I am, I simply cannot do this on my own. In the back of my head, I’m thinking back problems now…heart attack in the future? I know I shouldn’t think that way, but the thoughts are there.

Nothing happens without discipline.

Nothing happens without discipline.

NOTHING

Please Lord, I need the discipline to lose weight. I know the only way I am going to do this is to trust you more than I have before. I know for my health, this HAS to be done. I don’t want to live like this, in constant pain and needing pain pills to function. Please help me not to be so stubborn, please help me to accept the help of friends and family.