Early in December, I got a text from my little brother to call him as soon as I could that it was about Nikki. When I called him he told me she was in the hospital due to her doing drugs and her liver was shutting down. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Drugs? I mean I knew she smoked pot, but I knew nothing more. So I was caught off guard. But I was still skeptical and wanted to hear it from her mouth. She wasn't telling anyone what happened and I wasn't getting any answers. So the next day, I found 4 different hospitals in two cites as to where she might be. I found her at the fourth hospital. When the operator told me she was connecting me to her room, I teared up.
She didn't want to tell me what happened and I told her that was okay. That whether she told me or not, I still loved her. Because that is all that really matters. She wound up telling what my brother had told me and confirmed that it was due to drugs, particularly Meth. I kept telling her I loved her no matter what, but through tears pleaded with her to seek help because I couldn't bear to lose my little sister.
She was discharged a few days later and I haven't heard from her since. I have tried calling, texting. No response. My brother hasn't heard from her either. I know she's still alive as she's posting on FB. But she's ignoring us, her family. And to be honest, my heart is completely broken about everything. I hate that I am not near her to try to help her. I can't stop thinking about her, praying about her, wondering where she is. Wondering if she's okay, wondering if she's alive. I get a sense of relief when I see a post on Facebook even if it's about something regarding pot. It means she's still breathing. My thoughts are so consumed with her that I can't think straight, sometimes can't function, can't sleep. I've learned how to deal with alcohol. And although Meth and alcohol are both considered drugs, this Meth chapter is a whole new thing to process. It's very uncharted waters for me.
Please pray for my sister. Pray for her to get off the drugs completely. I don't know what else to do but pray.