Friday, August 6, 2010

Waitin' & Prayin'

I've been home about 2 weeks from vacation trying to get back into the swing of life again with work, church, and South Africa. I've been off from Children's for two weeks and I realized yesterday that I miss my three year olds. My vacation was perfect, minus a snag that is better left unsaid. It's been awhile since I've been back to Indiana and it was nice to just take it all in. I enjoyed the scenery and the company. I got to see my cousins and their families as well as my dad and his girlfriend. They've been together for 7 years and I've never met her until vacation. The week flew by and it was just a great week. I really needed it for this heart of mine, especially seeing my dad.

There are numerous things floating around in this head of mine, good & bad, some will be posted here, some will be better on my private blog, and some will stay locked away forever. I can't be as open as I would like on this blog, too many people read this. Sometimes you really don't want to know what's happening with me, it can be quite interesting. Only a few people are let in on the craziness I experience sometimes. :)

I am a planner, one who is organized, one who puts everything on the calendar, does "To Do" lists, etc. I like to have a plan for my life, plotted out just so. Granted, most of the time my plans are not what God has in store for me. But I still plan/ organize to calm an anxiety attack. This is the first time in awhile when people ask me what is the plan and I really don't have one. Did you hear that? I really don't have a plan. I have no idea what is going to happen in my life any time soon. I joke and say my life is in shambles or it's upside down right now, but it's really not. I just don't have any plans. The only thing I can tell you is I'm going to South Africa in October to love on some kids who are orphaned. Right now, I'm kinda winging it. God has put a few things on my heart, but I'm not sure what path to take. I know what I want, but is it what God wants? I am not sure, and so I am just waiting & praying. Every year I get a little wiser and no matter how long I've been a Christian, I never fully give control over to God. It's difficult for me and something I struggle with, but every year I learn to give a little more control over to him. Yeah, I'm a slow learner, but I'm getting it.


Mel said...

I'm glad you had a good trip. I hope your trip to South Africa is great.

Leah said...

Brandy-- can one give towards your ministry trip via paypal? Not that I can offer much,so it's a little embarrassing to even ask, but I want to be involved somehow! Maybe you could email or FB message me?