My class in Anatomny & Physiology, two nights a week, for 3 hours a night. And boy did I make the right decision to only take that class. It's a lot of studying. Our professor said just to get a "C" in the class, you need to study 2-3 hours a night. My gosh, I've been studying, taking notes, trying out the whole notecard system, reading the chapters...everything I'm supposed to do. And yet, I'm feeling very overwhelmed by that class and feelilng like nothing is sticking.
Last week with our test, I did pretty good on it, but did bad on the Chemistry part of the test. I passed the medical part with no problems. Last night we had a test in lab, which I wasn't sure how the test would be. But it pretty much involved looking at slides under a microscope, determining what type of tissue it was, where it was located, etc. Gah! I don't think I did good on that test at all. It was difficult. And then we started studying the bone section last night. My professor's slide show presentation is 91 slides long. He's not the greatest of professors, he's actually quite boring and literally just reads from his notes.
I walked out of class feeling overwhelmed beyond belief thinking I'm never going to get this and I will have to take this class again or that I'm just done with school. I'm really too old to be dealing with it, dealing with all these young people. I called Becky for reassurance, needing her to talk me out of the "I'm dropping out of school" thoughts I was having. There is A LOT of information to retain and my brain doesn't seem to be picking it up. And I'm honestly questioning if I can handle it. I've always wanted to be a nurse...or something in the medical field. But it's taking me forever and I just want to be done with it. People ask if I'm going to go on and get my bachelor's degree. *Clears throat* Can I work on the associates and not think about the bachelor's degree right now? And then I start to think...for me being 31 with no college degree, I'm making pretty good money at my job, but it's not what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I'm so close to applying for the nursing program, yet so far away at the same time.
Quote of the day: "Education aims to give you a boost up the ladder of knowledge. Too often, it just gives you a cramp on one of it's rungs." Martin H. Fischer