Sunday, October 22, 2006


So, I had a revelation last night. I can't really say it was a good revelation, but I had one nonetheless. It has involved quite a few bit of tears, but I know what has to be. You know how you suddenly open your eyes to the truth? The truth has always been in front of your face, but you never choose to acknowledge it because it was not what you wanted to hear. Once the revelation becomes clear to you, you begin to wonder why you didn't see it sooner. Oh, I do believe I saw it sooner, but again choose to ignore it. Then you start to think...I have wasted so much time with this. Why did I do that? Why did I worry about that? I don't know about you, but that is the way I'm wired. Do I regret this truth I choose to ignore? Not in this particular case. In some other scenarios, yes, absolutely. But not with this one. I would like to think that I live and learn, but in certain cases I never learn. If I had to do it all over again, I would, because for a time it caused me to be happy even if it wasn't real. I'm still happy about it, but now there is truth behind everything. You may wonder what I'm talking about, very few of you actually know what my revelation was. However, I will probably never actually speak of the revelation on here. Now, 24 hours later I can see that I'm okay with things the way they are now. I guess everything happens in God's timing. Why I choose to have the revelation last night is beyond me, well I suppose it's not. I do know why it happened, but it could of been sooner.

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